Weary

Ever feel tired down to your bones? Where every part of your body aches and your spirit feels like it needs a big drink of water. That is how I am feeling right now. It has been awhile since I wrote here. The weariness is part of that. Truth is I have so much to write I don't know what to say next. :) I've wound up saying nothing. Silly me.

I titled this blog "All my Hats." I supposed at some point that I would touch on all aspects of my life, that at some point all the "hats" I wear would be mentioned. My life for the most part is neatly compartmentalized, neatly ordered and kept separate. I wear a lot of hats but I don't enjoy wearing more than one at a time. Right now I am wearing more than one at a time, this is where my spirit starts to get tired. Problem is, I am not sure how to deal with this. I think that we all go through this, these times of wondering which way is up or down. It is not unique to my life. I have been there before and found my way through the fog. But here I am again, in that dark room bumping into things looking for the light switch. I fight hard to stay in the present. But sometimes the present can be a scary place. And I find myself looking forward to a future or back to a past. I keep reminding myself that this is only for a time; that things will slow down, that I should just take one thing at a time, one day at a time. Just. Keep. Breathing.

I hope to spend more time here, on this blog. I think that I need to purge these thoughts. I think they weigh me down if I don't. So that is my step, my commitment. For my sanity.