I've got your back

Like most mothers I will never forget the day that my children were born. There was something special about Caden's birth though. I don't recall looking forward to something like I looked forward to Cade being born. Every contraction excited me. The more painful they became the more excited I became. I knew that every contraction was getting me closer to meeting our son. I had a natural birth and loved every moment of it. Embraced all of it. Ryan's job throughout all of this was to have my back, rub it, put pressure on it, pound on it, whatever I asked him to do to my back he did. When Cade made his appearance, Ryan literally had my back, he was laying down behind me bracing my back with his chest. We got to experience Caden's birth from the same point of view. It was like our bodies were extensions of each other. It was one of the best moments of my life.

Last night I cracked, sometimes it just becomes too much and it spills over no matter how strong I want or hope to be. Ryan had my back. I'll hold you, you cry. I will hold you up. I am so grateful to share my life with someone who no matter how painful the moment or how hard life gets will always have my back. Someone who loves Caden like I do, who understands my point of view as a mother because he choses to see life not only through his own eyes but my eyes as well. I am so thankful that our lives are extensions of each other and that we continue to grow stronger with each other. That our foundation has not become cracked or damaged but stronger through everything that life has brought our way.